Decisions..

I'm trying to decide is I want to take a risk of begin a mom to twins or a singleton..
Do I want to take the risk or not.. I always thought and could see a future of twins. Ever since I was young. My husband is supportive but his fear is having more than two. Which could happen.. I'm in the cycle before the FET cycle, I'm pretty excited!

I have 16 babies frozen, life is such a miracle.. It's amazing how science can help women like me become mothers. I had 9 in perfect form, and 13 in decent condition, 7 out of the 13 where frozen.

With the OHSS, I have lost 20 lbs but I'm still swollen, I can't button up the jeans I could wear comfortably prior to IVF at the same weight I am right now. It's very frustrating.. I'd like to lose 10 lbs before FET, I knowing can do it, I'll be hitting up the store for fruits and veggies. No more junk food for now. I need to pump my body up with healthy food for my babies.

I had a rough time with the medications with Lupron, I had lost down to 227 from 232.
With OHSS I gained to 248, and very constipated! It was miserable..
Today I'm down to 228.

At the hospital my stomach was at 52", I haven checked but prior I was 38".

OHSS is very painful and it makes it hard to breathe or walk, I'm still not at 100% I can't stand up for long without my back hurting and feeling exhausted. I don't wish this on anyone..