Cycle Day 20, DPO 5

Been cramping on and off, it's very light, and last night I had a sharp pinching feeling on my left lower side. Lower back was killing me and I couldn't get to sleep no matter how hard I tried, restless leg syndrome was getting the best of me yesterday. BB's hurt but it also comes and goes.
Been extremely sleepy today and still have a headache for the past 3 days now.

Temp was 97.5, felt warm today, I feel worn out and I haven't even done anything.

Haven't checked my CM but I'm definitely not dry..

No shake today, I just got a glass of milk, mixed in 1 tsp Maca and 4 tsp of strawberry quik. Good enough..

I do need to go buy bananas, I'm out and some oranges from Aldi since Tom Thumb charges an arm and leg for fruit.

About to go get ready for some dinner tonight with friends, contemplating if I want to get a margarita. I want one but its best not too I suppose..

I'll be taking all my vitamins at night again to make sure they are absorbed into my body and not peeing them out right away.

Also wanted to add today, I noticed I started to get some acne, I don't get pimples, but I have about 5-6 small ones that I noticed yesterday evening and today.. At least they are tiny..

Cycle Day 18, DPO 3

I've been having a headache almost everyday and today, feeling sleepy and lazy today.
I'm dreading going back to work on Sept 9th.

Today's stats:
CD 18, DPO 3: 97.5 Creamy CM

Today's fertility shake:
1 cup of orange juice forfeited calcium
1 cup of ice
1 frozen banana 
Shake of cinnamon
1tsp of vanilla extract
1 packet of Splenda
1 tsp of maca
1 tsp of royal jelly

Blend and enjoy!

I still take 3 pills of Fertilaid, 1 of conceive easy, 1 cod liver oil, 2 folic acid, 2 metformin.

I just read that you are to only take no more than 400mg of folic acid so I will check to see how much I'm taking and see if I need to cut back since Fertilaid and conceive easy have folic acid in them as we'll.

Cycle Day 17, DPO 2 Waiting game

Well spoke with the hubby, everything is smoothed over as of Saturday.

That's the nice thing to being married to a man that fixes the issues and has an open line of communication.

Yesterday and today the ovulation strips barely show any lines so I'm out of the fertile zone, I ovulated sometime between Saturday and Sunday I believe, I was a bit uncomfortable on Sunday with some light nausea and some cramping. So I think my AF was full flow on Sunday more than Saturday or just late ovulation, not to sure.

I didn't drink a maca royal jelly smoothly on Sunday just to have a day of rest.

Today's stats:
CD 17, DPO 2: 97.0 Sticky/Creamy CM

Today's fertility smoothie is
1cup of organic milk
1 frozen banana or regular
1 cup of ice
1 tbsp of vanilla
1good shake of cinnamon
1 Splenda packet or whatever sugar you use
1 tsp of maca
1 tsp of royal jelly

Blender and enjoy!


I still take 3 pills of Fertilaid, 1 of conceive easy, 1 cod liver oil, 2 folic acid, 2 metformin.

Feeling confused and hurt

Just recently my husband told me he felt forced when having sex here lately. That I'm pressuring him into it. It's completely made me depressed here lately.

I would go long periods of time without having sex, not because I wanted to do that, but because I was on some serious medication that didn't make things work for me down there, and times when it was a bit painful.

Plus it doesn't help when we'd have sex, I do all of the work, he would just lay there, and I'd have to ask if could please do whatever to me. Yes I'd have to say please or beg..
I'd like to feel loved too, like he desires me. It's rather hurtful when he would tell me every time that he's tired. To me, when I'm trying to have sex the last thing I want to hear is that your tired. Makes me feel like you just want me to hurry.. Or that your tired of me..

I'm a very passionate woman, I love hard and love to satisfy, but I also expect the same back..

Now back to current, he knows we are trying for a baby, and i feel like he's playing it off, makes me feel like he's working all this overtime on purpose, comes home and as no energy for sex.

My heart breaks to know that he isn't even trying and I'm going to have to start IVF again next month. I wanted to try naturally..

Oh we'll guess spewing in a cup is more fun than having sex with me.

We have had sex, but I don't know if its enough to last for when I ovulate tomorrow.

I've given up. If he's not into it, why am I even trying..

God I need my therapist again..

Going back to cry myself to sleep.. Nite!

Casting my spell

Spell is cast, it's a full moon.. Ready to BD.. I know I'm not ovulating but it's close.. My poor DH is woren out.. He's not use to having sex everyday anymore.

Just a few more days and he can rest.. I feel bad cause he has to work and I don't but I need him more than ever.

I don't know what to do to make him feel energized to rock my world. I do most of the work anyways.

I slipped him some enhancers but it doesn't take effect until he gets it up.. It's been an hour since he drank it but it doesn't seem like it did anything.. And I gave him some scoops of Maca.

Maca didn't come in effect until 2-3 days later..

I guess we'll see after tonight if it does anything for his libido.

My libido when it's working right, I can have sex multiple times a day, everyday!

What can I say I'm a Scorpio!!

Cycle Day 11

Well fair warning this might be a bit TMI..

After drinking maca root for 3 days now, I had increased it to 2tsp, and my libido is through the roof!
It is natures Viagra! I even notice it in my CM, it's that egg white type and a lot of it!
Especially today!!

Today's fertility drink is:

Frozen mix of strawberries
Frozen raspberries
Frozen blackberries
1/4cup of apple juice
1/2 cup of orange juice with banana
1/2 cup of odwalla super food
2 tsp of maca root
2 tsp of royal jelly (another super fertility item, it's sticky like honey)

Blend and drink!

I've also started to take today Cod liver oil soft gels.
Two pills folic acid they are 800 mcg a pill
3 pills of Fertilaid
1 pill of conceive easy

Then my normal
1000mg of metformin

I'm hoping my talisman comes soon from Mia Angel, it's coming from the UK.
Should be here any day..

It's nice not having to work right now while I'm going through this, work is so stressful!

Cycle Day 9

I bought my MACA powder today, and also odwalla superfood drink.

Here is the smoothie I made for fertility

2 pieces of pineapple 
5 frozen strawberries
I small banana
1/2 cup of odwalla superfood
1/2 of orange juice with 1 tsp of Maca powder mixed in
1 packet of Splenda 
1/4 cup of water
 Blended really well.. It's pretty good, can't taste the Maca at all.

I also received ConceiveEasy aka FertiliBella
I started taking that also along with FertilAid.

Hoping some results happen this week.. It's BD week!! So exciting!!

Hoping something happens so I don't have to do IVF next month!

Cycle Day 7

Can't wait for next week!

I've now been taking Fertilaid since I received it by mail for 3 days now.. It's 3 pills a day, not bad..
Also been taking Vitex up to 3 pills a day, tomorrow I'm going to get some royal jelly and Maca.

Still drinking my tea, it's not my favorite part.. Kinda getting old.. But anything to see if I can conceive on my own this month.

Fertibella is on its way, but I don't know it's okay to take with Fertilaid.. I'll check the ingredients once it arrives.

I have noticed my libido is up pretty high.. I'm a sexual beast when I'm in the mood.. And it's been a very long while.. ;)

Cycle Day 2

Started on AF yesterday full flow.. I'm sad but I know it's not the end.

I ordered Fertilaid again, and started to drink FertiliTea. Very good with people with PCOS.

I also ordered a fertility spell from Mia Angel. As soon as I get her instructions I will be doing them as instructed!

Aug 21 is a full moon and around the time I ovulate, I will be BDing many times..

I still wear my fertility bracelet I bought, most say it takes 1-3 months until others got pregnant. At this point I am trying everything and anything.

I know it will happen, it's just a matter of time/when..

In the mean while, I will focus on losing some weight again and healing myself.

Next cycle should begin Sept 6th, that's if we don't get pregnant inbetween. I rather get pregnant naturally vs IVF because its not a easy or comfortable process.. But we shall see, taking it day by day..

9dp5dt BFN

This IVF cycle was unsuccessful, Dr. Ku called me tolet me know that the beta test was less than 1. So it's negative results..

He wants to start the next cycle, no charge since we are not sure what happened with my eggs that all of them failed, except 2-3 of them..

I'm disappointed but I think this month of August before the next cycle starts, I'm going to try naturally. If not than September will be my 2nd cycle.

I ordered fertili aid again, I can't find the one I bought, but I'm going to start that and my fertili tea again, it works, I really do that helped with my endo lining and having regular periods.

Also female toner helped too.. I will continue to drink the teas, plus they taste very good!

Going to see if I can lose 20lbs also.. I need too for better chances and before the next round..

8dp5dt nervous..

Tomorrow is my beta, I'm a bit nervous.. I've been lightly bleeding since Tuesday, with Monday evening of the scant brown spotting.. Today is was a tiny bit heavier and the cramping was a bit stronger.. Tried to take it easy, but its on my mind.

It helps to know that some ladies bleed up to 5 days. It's still very light but not my typical period I'm use to getting which are pretty heavy for two of the 5-7 days I normally have. Plus my period is to really start tomorrow.

I'm trying to keep a blank thought, all I can think of is my one miracle embryo I've been blessed with so far. I pray every morning that my baby is growing to be healthy..

My symptoms vary from day to day.. Today, it was dizziness, yesterday was nausea.
But everyday had been diarrhea, and headaches, cramping, light bleeding mid day, and fatigue around 1-3pm.

I'll be updating tomorrow once the beta results are in.

5dp5dt Implantation?

I'm really not trying to worry, I had to google other girls symptoms, but after lastnight's brown spotting which is old blood, which could of happened from a few days before.

But today as of 30 mins I saw orange red blood.. And period cramping.. I'm worried.. I didn't think my period was to start this early.. Biggest suggestion was to rest and drink lots of water.

I have a liner on to monitor how much it is and color.. I'm going to go check but i did see some tissue pass which reminds me of my first pregnancy.

I'm hoping this isn't the end of this cycle, trying to remain positive and calm.

I think I'm going to go check again.. I was to test so bad but I'm scared too..

4dp5dt POI 1 Day

I was finally given the okay to use the progestrone oil injections, my poor husband was so nervous. I iced down my back so I wouldn't feel anything, only thing I felt was the needle go in but that didn't hurt.. I tried to keep calm so he wouldn't be a nervous wreck.

He texted his friends to let them know he was about to jab a needle in my back side. Their advice?.. Just say sorry, sorry, sorry.. And the other one told him to close his eyes! LMAO!!
He did great though, didn't feel anything...

I'm still unsure if I'm pregnant, haven't seen any spotting, I get very light cramps, or some twinges and pinches, but that doesn't tell me anything. My boobs hurt so bad, and my nipples are sensitive.
I've also have had a loose stomach, TMI!! True story though..

I also still get up to go pee in the middle of the night. Usually between 2-5 am

Last night I had a weird but also a sexual dream.. Kinda vivid.. Nice.. It's like free porn! ;D

But that's Day 4, I was so tempted to test but I can't and I won't, never have any luck with that.. I can wait until Friday! I know I can..

Today was also the last day for the pineapple core, no more after today.. I had 5 days from the day of the transfer.


Update at 11:45pm: I just saw scant brown spotting.. Eek!! :O

3dp5dt: 5 days till beta

Well, I feel nothing yet, other than moody at times and small cramps but that's about it, I'm finally able to move around but I still run out of breath so I know the OHSS is still in effect.

Tomorrow I'll be calling to see about the progesterone injection, I don't want to go on too long without it in case my levels started to drop down.

I might have my husband do the injection tonight..

We shall see...

1dp5dt: 7 days till beta

My back hurts from laying down.. Trying to find different ways to be comfortable. Just one more day..

I found this online for a guide to see where I might be.

 This is what happens in a 5dt :

0dpt... Embryo is now a blastocyst

1dpt....Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day

2dpt.. Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining

3dpt.. Implantation begins,as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining

4dpt.. Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining

5dpt.. Morula is completely inmplanted in the lining and has placenta cells & 

fetal cells

6dpt...Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood

7dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops 

8dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops 

9dpt...HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on 

The one that survived

I'm amazed but remain optimistic until Aug 9 after my first beta test.

But after I was told on Monday that all 21 eggs were not successful that my eggs dehydrated and started to shrink after ICSI was performed. I was told that there would be a 1% chance that maybe two embryos might be doing something.

Tuesday, another phone call the embryologist said that she saw signs of process that the cells had split, and that she would check on Wednesday afternoon and advised that is the cells continued to multiple, I would be having a late transfer or on schedule for Day 5 transfer on Thursday.

I had a visit with Dr. Lowell Ku Tuesday morning, he was only talking about getting ready for the next IVF cycle, and that it would be comped because of the rare phenomena of the eggs shrinking. He was saying the next time would happen. If the same thing happens again, they would consider donor eggs. I looked at him puzzled and asked well what happened with the two embryos that may have a chance? I was surprised, he didn't know that there was at least two surviving. He said he had asked the embryologist in the morning and she told him three was nothing.. I told him she was going to call Wednesday with an update if the embryo was to continue to multiple. He was shocked and happy to hear the news and the waiting game began.

Wednesday afternoon I got a call from the embryologist called and said I had 3 embryos that looked liked decent but at least one of them was going to be transferred and was looking like it should for day 4, she said she would call in the morning to confirm if the transfer would happen for Thursday.

Thursday I got the greatest news of my life, my baby was ready for transfer.

11:00 came along and I started to drink LOTS of water, I think I over did it cause I was allowed to pee at least 3 and half cups only..  I was so much in pain for over drinking water. Dr. Ku was running late but I got to see the first picture of my baby.

I was told from grade A being the best for Grade F being the worst, my baby was a grade C. But I'm Very okay with that, I couldn't be happier, my child already shows signs of stubbornness and strength.. A baby that wouldn't give up!

The transfer happened, not painful at all, my mom was there to hold my hand, she was able to see the baby go in and get pushed into place..

I'm still not on progesterone oil injections until my OHSS subsides, which is getting there slowly at a time.. I'll be calling Monday to check to see if its okay to start my injections.

I'm on best rest Friday and Saturday to ensure the baby implants.. I pray that my miracle baby is a sticky baby..

I'm eating my pineapple core and keeping socks on my feet. Eating warm foods and room temp water.. Trying to follow some guilds and suggestions from others for best chances..

Keeping positive..