Well to my surprize I moved into the second phase which is waiting for my 2nd ultrasound, I'm moving along a lot better this time around, I was at 7.1 vs 5 from my previous chart. Hopefully this time I get to my phase 3 which is the transfer. If all goes well i get my black circles on my hips for the poi shots.
Only time will tell but I will continue my raspberry tea leaf and 5 estrace pills.
I honestly believe that the raspberry tea leaf really is working for me to tone my uterus.
On another note, I got a job offer and another interview, hopefully all goes well to so I can continue to have health insurance after Nov 30th.
Next update is Nov 14th..
Wednesday, November 12, 2014
Wednesday, November 5, 2014
IVF cycle #6
So many disappointments, can't ever seem to get to actually doing the transfer.
I'm on my next cycle, and it's been unbelievably defeating.
This time around im taking 4 estrace pills, hopefully my body isn't triggering ovulation this time.
I've made sure I'm taking my metformin twice a day.
I've been drinking red raspberry tea leaf since day 2, just about every day, trying to do twice a day but I keep forgetting, and I need to try to fit pomegrante juice in atleast once a day. All 6oz or so.
I have until day 13, I'm on day 8.
On day 15 I'll be eating or drinking pineapple core and the meat for 5 days. That's if they don't cancel on me again.
It's been a time crunch since I was laid off, my official last day is Nov 22 and I'm on a job hunt to start for the beginning of Dec. I've had 1 interview and another tomorrow.
Hopefully all goes well, if not than I need to go on cobra to make sure I keep insurance available incase everything does go through.
*deep breathe*
Btw the last cycle that was cancelled last month, I had almost the same as the first FET cycle, 3 cyst in ovaries and lining was 6.9cm or 7 cm
Fluid was in the cavity with but due to the cyst, my body was tempting to ovulate so everything had to be cancelled.
Hoping this lining ends up thicker. And no cyst. :/
I'm on my next cycle, and it's been unbelievably defeating.
This time around im taking 4 estrace pills, hopefully my body isn't triggering ovulation this time.
I've made sure I'm taking my metformin twice a day.
I've been drinking red raspberry tea leaf since day 2, just about every day, trying to do twice a day but I keep forgetting, and I need to try to fit pomegrante juice in atleast once a day. All 6oz or so.
I have until day 13, I'm on day 8.
On day 15 I'll be eating or drinking pineapple core and the meat for 5 days. That's if they don't cancel on me again.
It's been a time crunch since I was laid off, my official last day is Nov 22 and I'm on a job hunt to start for the beginning of Dec. I've had 1 interview and another tomorrow.
Hopefully all goes well, if not than I need to go on cobra to make sure I keep insurance available incase everything does go through.
*deep breathe*
Btw the last cycle that was cancelled last month, I had almost the same as the first FET cycle, 3 cyst in ovaries and lining was 6.9cm or 7 cm
Fluid was in the cavity with but due to the cyst, my body was tempting to ovulate so everything had to be cancelled.
Hoping this lining ends up thicker. And no cyst. :/
Monday, April 7, 2014
Psychic readings (California psychic) predictions
Reading from Psychic Walter
4/7/2014
The wait just to speak with him was so worth it! I waited about 3 hours or so?..
He was the type of psychic I like! Totally real!
3 men with grandma that she's not alone.
June, second or third week, husband will get a promotion, hug him! Tell him congratulations.
Grandma says he does love me, don't doubt it
Year and half or year and 3 quarters girl born, birth given from me, my own, followed by another girl, two kids for sure, twins?
Guides asked why am I doubting this?
I said I've had nothing but road blocks for almost 4 yrs now.
I told him I'm seeing the doctor today in 7 hours.
This Thursday around 2pm an occasion: tues,wed,thurs.., validity lunch? To come for lunch? Something happening. I asked maybe surgery? He said he wasn't sure but the guides are saying for validity of the reading.
Come Sept, all will be past us. Big ordeal mom side of family, Large amount of money, over land, everyone will be smiling
He saw its due to genetics is cause of infertility, my mom, he said don't fret it will happen.
Don't believe doctors it will happen. I confirmed yes my mother had a hard time too.
Ball rolling, like a global, it rolls grandma said. Something about pie slice of pie?
He said I've had a rough 3 years but everything will come to pass. Things will get better.
Walter mentioned the way the bed is when you walk in, at an angle?, in front there is a picture of grandma? Facing a weird direction or hidden?
I said there is a sewing cabinet of hers and a large picture of me that came from her house.
She wanted to let me know that she is there. Like she's attached to the item(?). Validity
Reading from Psychic Kennedy
4/3/2014
Kennedy said a change of doctors coming, get second opinion, don't let them tell you can't.
Surgery coming soon like laparoscopy?
Pregnancy in Oct 2015
Girl then boy, doesn't think it'll be twins but not sure
Def sees two kids
She says not to worry it will happen.
My two predictions, pretty similar,
I had two others but their readings where so general and full of BS, something I would give to someone as a overall answer that isn't quite an answer. Nothing like Walter and Kennedy! Both are the read deal, more Walter because he gives you key points to validate his accuracy.
I will defiantly speak with Walter again!
4/7/2014
The wait just to speak with him was so worth it! I waited about 3 hours or so?..
He was the type of psychic I like! Totally real!
3 men with grandma that she's not alone.
June, second or third week, husband will get a promotion, hug him! Tell him congratulations.
Grandma says he does love me, don't doubt it
Year and half or year and 3 quarters girl born, birth given from me, my own, followed by another girl, two kids for sure, twins?
Guides asked why am I doubting this?
I said I've had nothing but road blocks for almost 4 yrs now.
I told him I'm seeing the doctor today in 7 hours.
This Thursday around 2pm an occasion: tues,wed,thurs.., validity lunch? To come for lunch? Something happening. I asked maybe surgery? He said he wasn't sure but the guides are saying for validity of the reading.
Come Sept, all will be past us. Big ordeal mom side of family, Large amount of money, over land, everyone will be smiling
He saw its due to genetics is cause of infertility, my mom, he said don't fret it will happen.
Don't believe doctors it will happen. I confirmed yes my mother had a hard time too.
Ball rolling, like a global, it rolls grandma said. Something about pie slice of pie?
He said I've had a rough 3 years but everything will come to pass. Things will get better.
Walter mentioned the way the bed is when you walk in, at an angle?, in front there is a picture of grandma? Facing a weird direction or hidden?
I said there is a sewing cabinet of hers and a large picture of me that came from her house.
She wanted to let me know that she is there. Like she's attached to the item(?). Validity
Reading from Psychic Kennedy
4/3/2014
Kennedy said a change of doctors coming, get second opinion, don't let them tell you can't.
Surgery coming soon like laparoscopy?
Pregnancy in Oct 2015
Girl then boy, doesn't think it'll be twins but not sure
Def sees two kids
She says not to worry it will happen.
My two predictions, pretty similar,
I had two others but their readings where so general and full of BS, something I would give to someone as a overall answer that isn't quite an answer. Nothing like Walter and Kennedy! Both are the read deal, more Walter because he gives you key points to validate his accuracy.
I will defiantly speak with Walter again!
Friday, March 21, 2014
Cancelled FET
Today was my second ultrasound for the FET cycle. Another heart break. Well last week when I got looked at, my lining was at 6.9 mm and had a small amount of liquid in the uterus cavity.
I also had 3 cysts in my left ovary. I was told to increase my estradiol from 3 to 6 a day.
3 orally, 3 internally. That immediately cause a relation, feeling extremely dizzy, lightheaded, and nauseous. It got worse and on some days I was okay. Well today was my follow up to last weeks results to see if the lining was better. I was excited! We had already decided to transfer 2 embryos.
Well during the ultrasound the specialist notices multiple cysts and masses. She ask if I was spotting or bleeding. I told her no, just discharging clear due to the high amounts of estrogen they have me on.
I also still had 3 cysts in my left ovary, less than 11mm and my right had 1 cyst. My lining overall with the masses inside is at 9mm not thick enough still for FET.
Dr. Ku reviewed the findings, and he came back very worried. He said they looked like cysts, he told me to stop all medications and inject 1 PIO. Nurse Jessica said she would do it there, I got iced up and injected. Didn't feel a thing but I am bruised and sore in that area. I also now have a knot.. Owe!
Once this false cycle begins, I'm to call Dr. Ku and schedule a uterine saline ultrasound. To see better of size and location of masses in 6-10 days from the cycle.
I'm dreading this cycle because they are extremely painful and I do have a high pain tolerance! But this brings me to my knees. Not even hydrocodine works!
Well after the ultrasound viewing, I get a hysteroscopy D&C done, this will be my 5th one. I'm put under every time. Except I like it better with Dr. Ku because there is recovery time instead of my Gyno, she just wakes me up from the table and I sit in a wheel chair until it's time to go. I'm usually left in pain and struggle to stay awake.
After that I wait for the results, either i continue with Dr. Ku or I go see the cancer doctor again.
The wait saga continues..
I also had 3 cysts in my left ovary. I was told to increase my estradiol from 3 to 6 a day.
3 orally, 3 internally. That immediately cause a relation, feeling extremely dizzy, lightheaded, and nauseous. It got worse and on some days I was okay. Well today was my follow up to last weeks results to see if the lining was better. I was excited! We had already decided to transfer 2 embryos.
Well during the ultrasound the specialist notices multiple cysts and masses. She ask if I was spotting or bleeding. I told her no, just discharging clear due to the high amounts of estrogen they have me on.
I also still had 3 cysts in my left ovary, less than 11mm and my right had 1 cyst. My lining overall with the masses inside is at 9mm not thick enough still for FET.
Dr. Ku reviewed the findings, and he came back very worried. He said they looked like cysts, he told me to stop all medications and inject 1 PIO. Nurse Jessica said she would do it there, I got iced up and injected. Didn't feel a thing but I am bruised and sore in that area. I also now have a knot.. Owe!
Once this false cycle begins, I'm to call Dr. Ku and schedule a uterine saline ultrasound. To see better of size and location of masses in 6-10 days from the cycle.
I'm dreading this cycle because they are extremely painful and I do have a high pain tolerance! But this brings me to my knees. Not even hydrocodine works!
Well after the ultrasound viewing, I get a hysteroscopy D&C done, this will be my 5th one. I'm put under every time. Except I like it better with Dr. Ku because there is recovery time instead of my Gyno, she just wakes me up from the table and I sit in a wheel chair until it's time to go. I'm usually left in pain and struggle to stay awake.
After that I wait for the results, either i continue with Dr. Ku or I go see the cancer doctor again.
The wait saga continues..
Thursday, February 20, 2014
Decisions..
I'm trying to decide is I want to take a risk of begin a mom to twins or a singleton..
Do I want to take the risk or not.. I always thought and could see a future of twins. Ever since I was young. My husband is supportive but his fear is having more than two. Which could happen.. I'm in the cycle before the FET cycle, I'm pretty excited!
I have 16 babies frozen, life is such a miracle.. It's amazing how science can help women like me become mothers. I had 9 in perfect form, and 13 in decent condition, 7 out of the 13 where frozen.
With the OHSS, I have lost 20 lbs but I'm still swollen, I can't button up the jeans I could wear comfortably prior to IVF at the same weight I am right now. It's very frustrating.. I'd like to lose 10 lbs before FET, I knowing can do it, I'll be hitting up the store for fruits and veggies. No more junk food for now. I need to pump my body up with healthy food for my babies.
I had a rough time with the medications with Lupron, I had lost down to 227 from 232.
With OHSS I gained to 248, and very constipated! It was miserable..
Today I'm down to 228.
At the hospital my stomach was at 52", I haven checked but prior I was 38".
OHSS is very painful and it makes it hard to breathe or walk, I'm still not at 100% I can't stand up for long without my back hurting and feeling exhausted. I don't wish this on anyone..
Do I want to take the risk or not.. I always thought and could see a future of twins. Ever since I was young. My husband is supportive but his fear is having more than two. Which could happen.. I'm in the cycle before the FET cycle, I'm pretty excited!
I have 16 babies frozen, life is such a miracle.. It's amazing how science can help women like me become mothers. I had 9 in perfect form, and 13 in decent condition, 7 out of the 13 where frozen.
With the OHSS, I have lost 20 lbs but I'm still swollen, I can't button up the jeans I could wear comfortably prior to IVF at the same weight I am right now. It's very frustrating.. I'd like to lose 10 lbs before FET, I knowing can do it, I'll be hitting up the store for fruits and veggies. No more junk food for now. I need to pump my body up with healthy food for my babies.
I had a rough time with the medications with Lupron, I had lost down to 227 from 232.
With OHSS I gained to 248, and very constipated! It was miserable..
Today I'm down to 228.
At the hospital my stomach was at 52", I haven checked but prior I was 38".
OHSS is very painful and it makes it hard to breathe or walk, I'm still not at 100% I can't stand up for long without my back hurting and feeling exhausted. I don't wish this on anyone..
Friday, February 7, 2014
OHSS
Well I went from having great news to being admitted to the hospital..
I had 27 eggs extracted from me, out of those 27 eggs 22 fertilized! Best news ever!!
I was so happy, my mom cried with the great news. This time they let them fertilize naturally without ICSI.
But OHSS ugly head reared itself.. This morning I was 235 and just two hours later after eating 2 toast, I was up 238. I called dr Ku and he wanted to see me immediately.
Drove to the clinic and he said I was going to be admitted, I was too high of a risk, plus I am in pain and I couldn't breath.
So far this place has been really good to be.. The nurses here are so sweet!
They had a hard time finding a good vein tho for the IV, the first time they bent the plastic needle in my arm, the second time, they wiggled the plastic needle and slapped my arm to wake up my vein.. Torture! But I survived it! IV is in place and the worst is over.
They have me on morphine and Percocet.. Good stuff!
Can't wait for Sunday for another update on my babies..
I had 27 eggs extracted from me, out of those 27 eggs 22 fertilized! Best news ever!!
I was so happy, my mom cried with the great news. This time they let them fertilize naturally without ICSI.
But OHSS ugly head reared itself.. This morning I was 235 and just two hours later after eating 2 toast, I was up 238. I called dr Ku and he wanted to see me immediately.
Drove to the clinic and he said I was going to be admitted, I was too high of a risk, plus I am in pain and I couldn't breath.
So far this place has been really good to be.. The nurses here are so sweet!
They had a hard time finding a good vein tho for the IV, the first time they bent the plastic needle in my arm, the second time, they wiggled the plastic needle and slapped my arm to wake up my vein.. Torture! But I survived it! IV is in place and the worst is over.
They have me on morphine and Percocet.. Good stuff!
Can't wait for Sunday for another update on my babies..
Day 1 post EC
Well yesterday they took out my eggs, I believe they aren't doing ICSI this time and letting nature take its course.. I'll get a phone call today with my babies status.
They said it was quite a bit they took out. My husbands specimen was looking really good too!
I'm hurting tho, OHSS is in full effect but not nearly as bad, I've gained about 5 lbs so far, anything more I will let dr Ku know..
I'll weigh myself a little later but I am starting to lose my breath when I walk. Not as bad as last time but it's getting worse.
My last few days were very uncomfortable. I'll see how I'm doing tomorrow before I call HR to take me out of work again for awhile.
I kinda don't want too but I feel like I need to especially with the changes happening again.
I don't think I could go back with how I'm feeling, this hurts pretty bad. Just to sit to go to the bathroom it hurts. If I keep gaining, I'll text dr Ku to see if I need to go to the hospital.
They said it was quite a bit they took out. My husbands specimen was looking really good too!
I'm hurting tho, OHSS is in full effect but not nearly as bad, I've gained about 5 lbs so far, anything more I will let dr Ku know..
I'll weigh myself a little later but I am starting to lose my breath when I walk. Not as bad as last time but it's getting worse.
My last few days were very uncomfortable. I'll see how I'm doing tomorrow before I call HR to take me out of work again for awhile.
I kinda don't want too but I feel like I need to especially with the changes happening again.
I don't think I could go back with how I'm feeling, this hurts pretty bad. Just to sit to go to the bathroom it hurts. If I keep gaining, I'll text dr Ku to see if I need to go to the hospital.
Monday, February 3, 2014
Stim day 11
Dr. Ku called, he said I'm doing to well and is worried about OHSS to flare up again, he gave me options. First option is to cancel, second option is to proceed with caution and possible have to freeze my eggs for next month once OHSS is calmed down
I went with option two. He said that if the OHSS is severe again, I need to be omitted to the hospital to be monitored this time. Especially if I can't breath.
I've been sad, and crying.. Might be the hormones but I'm upset because last year I wasn't overlooked correctly. I know I can't dwell in the past but it hurts, I always get the short end of the stick.
Hopefully this time I'm paid more attention this time.
Tomorrow is my final scan, I'm feeling worse by the day, but I can't even sit at work without hurting, or walk without losing my breath. I'm not going to lie, I'm a little scared.
I just want some embryos that survive, but I also don't want to die either.
My estradiol is up to 5500 now, we'll see what's tomorrow's numbers, might be triggering tomorrow also.
I went with option two. He said that if the OHSS is severe again, I need to be omitted to the hospital to be monitored this time. Especially if I can't breath.
I've been sad, and crying.. Might be the hormones but I'm upset because last year I wasn't overlooked correctly. I know I can't dwell in the past but it hurts, I always get the short end of the stick.
Hopefully this time I'm paid more attention this time.
Tomorrow is my final scan, I'm feeling worse by the day, but I can't even sit at work without hurting, or walk without losing my breath. I'm not going to lie, I'm a little scared.
I just want some embryos that survive, but I also don't want to die either.
My estradiol is up to 5500 now, we'll see what's tomorrow's numbers, might be triggering tomorrow also.
Friday, January 31, 2014
Day 8 Stim Drugs
Well were do I start, this time around has been hell!
From headaches, to nausea, to stomach pains, vomiting, and tiredness.
Lately my back hurts, my ovaries are sore and I'm starting to lose my breath when I walk..
Hopefully just a few more days.
My estradiol is at 1500 and my follicles are at 14-16mm almost there.. Need one at 20! Come on Eggs!!
I noticed it's starting to bug me to pee again.. Ough.. But I'm no where near I was last time with OHSS I hope!
From headaches, to nausea, to stomach pains, vomiting, and tiredness.
Lately my back hurts, my ovaries are sore and I'm starting to lose my breath when I walk..
Hopefully just a few more days.
My estradiol is at 1500 and my follicles are at 14-16mm almost there.. Need one at 20! Come on Eggs!!
I noticed it's starting to bug me to pee again.. Ough.. But I'm no where near I was last time with OHSS I hope!
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Stim Injections Day 5
Well yesterday was my first scan, I'm behind compared to last year.. Last year on day four I was over 300 on my estradiol, this time I'm only at 136.6 which is low.. I had about 25 follicles on the right and 17 on the left.. Tomorrow is my next scan, hoping it's better stats. So far I've been feeling worse than last time, I'm sick more often and dizzy all the time. I've been struggling pretty bad. I keep getting nauseous and throwing up. Today I did it twice. At lunch and at dinner. No wonder I'm able to maintain my weight. I can keep anything in me. Even my stomach has been hurting pretty bad as soon as I eat. Follistim stings pretty bad after I've injected it into me. It lingers for awhile and gives me goose bumps. I really hope this time around is better..
Sunday, January 19, 2014
Rough start Day 6 Lupron
I don't remember beginning this rough last time with the injections Lupron, lots of nausea and stomach aches after eating food.
I requested some days off from work so I could relax some, next month will be a very busy one with ultrasounds, and blood draw, oh yes and the procedures.
Today was the last BCP, once I start my AF, it all begins from there, I think I start my Stim injection on Friday.
My mood swings have been bad, even with medication, I can be a huge bitch sometimes.. Lol poor husband..
I guess it's building up for the pregnancy hormones.. Should be interesting, last time I was pregnant, I cried about anything and everything.. Lol
Well this was my update, I'll post again soon..
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
CD 14 Day 2 of Lupron
I must say, the first day of being on Lupron was horrible. My side affects heighten by mid-day after taking the injection, especially after lunch. I get really sick to my stomach right around 12pm to 2pm.
I was vomitting, and had stomach pains, i had to take a nap at work.
I dont remember being that bad last time but then again i dont remember.
I'll have to read back to see if i had these sypmtoms.
So far Day 2, no issues but then again I really havent ate yet. Just cheese and crackers, water and some OJ with Pregnitude, Im really hoping Pregnitude really helps with the egg quality, its hard for me to drink OJ because of high sugar levels and gastric by pass.
Also my blood pressure has been really bad lately. I still havent gone to the gym. I need to get back and go, atleast for cardio so I dont gain the weight i worked so hard to get off.
3 weeks until ER and 4 weeks till ET!! First two weeks of February will be a happy one! :D Lets go baby(ies)!!!
Edit** I also wanted to add, my lining is at 12mm but its because of the BCP I am on, and also I have 15 folliciles on the right, and 12 on the left, a pretty good amount.. *crossing figures* My Stims and Trigger shot are ordered and should arrive Thursday, Im to start my Stims January 24th hopefully. I am so ready this year!! More than last time, this cant be a failure, not in 2014!!
- today im drinking some sprite, but my stomach and just everything, I feel like im swelling already. Im sure is the beginning of water retension. No food sounds good, warm food just seems gross. i hate this part..
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
New year New Cycle
New beginnings to a New Year, I'm kinda excited to begin this journey, I hope everything will be okay this time around.
I start my Lupron injections Jan 13th, and it should also be my baseline scan, hopefully the uterine lining isn't too thick, I haven't had a normal full flow since Aug.
My annual exam I was at .8cm of thickness, normally I'm at 2.0cm which is pretty thick. Nurse from my Gyno said it's still considered thick but not nearly as bad as before, so the hyperplasia may be borderline.. We'll see what Dr Ku says on my check up this coming Monday.
Taking a deep breath and buckling up, hopefully this time around won't be nearly as bad.
As hope with my work that things are calmer this year and that im not getting picked on as much, going to try my best to stay focused and not stress out.
Trying my best to stay above the water and float along while I'm going through these treatments, cause I know my hormones are going to be all over the place..
If everything is okay and I don't need another hysteroscopy, everything is geared to The first two weeks of Feb.
I also want to continue to workout throughout this journey if possible so I don't end up gaining too much weight like last time, I'm still battling the weight I had gained.
I went from 252 now down to 229. My ideal weight for now is 199.. 30lbs more to go..
I start my Lupron injections Jan 13th, and it should also be my baseline scan, hopefully the uterine lining isn't too thick, I haven't had a normal full flow since Aug.
My annual exam I was at .8cm of thickness, normally I'm at 2.0cm which is pretty thick. Nurse from my Gyno said it's still considered thick but not nearly as bad as before, so the hyperplasia may be borderline.. We'll see what Dr Ku says on my check up this coming Monday.
Taking a deep breath and buckling up, hopefully this time around won't be nearly as bad.
As hope with my work that things are calmer this year and that im not getting picked on as much, going to try my best to stay focused and not stress out.
Trying my best to stay above the water and float along while I'm going through these treatments, cause I know my hormones are going to be all over the place..
If everything is okay and I don't need another hysteroscopy, everything is geared to The first two weeks of Feb.
I also want to continue to workout throughout this journey if possible so I don't end up gaining too much weight like last time, I'm still battling the weight I had gained.
I went from 252 now down to 229. My ideal weight for now is 199.. 30lbs more to go..
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