Just recently my husband told me he felt forced when having sex here lately. That I'm pressuring him into it. It's completely made me depressed here lately.
I would go long periods of time without having sex, not because I wanted to do that, but because I was on some serious medication that didn't make things work for me down there, and times when it was a bit painful.
Plus it doesn't help when we'd have sex, I do all of the work, he would just lay there, and I'd have to ask if could please do whatever to me. Yes I'd have to say please or beg..
I'd like to feel loved too, like he desires me. It's rather hurtful when he would tell me every time that he's tired. To me, when I'm trying to have sex the last thing I want to hear is that your tired. Makes me feel like you just want me to hurry.. Or that your tired of me..
I'm a very passionate woman, I love hard and love to satisfy, but I also expect the same back..
Now back to current, he knows we are trying for a baby, and i feel like he's playing it off, makes me feel like he's working all this overtime on purpose, comes home and as no energy for sex.
My heart breaks to know that he isn't even trying and I'm going to have to start IVF again next month. I wanted to try naturally..
Oh we'll guess spewing in a cup is more fun than having sex with me.
We have had sex, but I don't know if its enough to last for when I ovulate tomorrow.
I've given up. If he's not into it, why am I even trying..
God I need my therapist again..
Going back to cry myself to sleep.. Nite!
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